Ever thought or wonder what will happen when your loved ones decided not to check on you or contact you anymore? Especially when you love that person too much and that it's hard to let go. When that person happens to be your own friend or family who is fucking damn close to you. You felt damn disappointed and that you will feel left out as though you are not appreciated by them. You don't even feel welcome anymore. And when you get to know this, it's like your heart is breaking into a million pieces, speechless and you wanted to cry but eventually you pull yourself together to notice that it is not worth it to cry for the people who don't appreciate you and people who don't deserve your kaire. Well folks, that's how i felt.

When i found out what i found out, (ok, i did mention it right.heh) it is as though i felt unappreciated. Flashes of memories past by my mind (dramatic,right?) and i kept questioning myself, is it me? Or is there some kind of delay? Is what i'm thinking even true? I felt quite lost xia. I was fucking shock when i saw the fact. I couldn't breathe for a moment when i saw your name and i thought that prolly there's some kind of delay and prolly i'm the last to know. But NO! It didn't happen that way and i was dissapointed. Fucking disappointed in you. Or is it me? Fuck la. I don't wanna play games anymore. I don't even want to harp for anything to happen. But what am i suppose to do to restrain all these questioning in my mind? I know you can read this and i know you will keep visiting my blog but all i have to say is, if this is what you want to do or behave, i have nothing to tell you but to grow up. If it's me, then tell me what the hell went wrong and i can even realise what wrong i did to you to deserve this silent treatment. Is it because i didn't text for a few weeks? Is it a silent Goodbye you wanna tell me. I've been living my life without you for a few weeks now and i don't kaire if you wanna say goodbye anymore. Cause i'm already am fine with my situation(even when sislove SUDDENLY am wanting to meet me all the time, mcm da jatuh cinta ngan aku plak tu pendek.Anyhoo...). Fine, i don't wanna go on and on and on. Macam maknenek t. Pffft. Thanks and Takekaire ehk, girl.

And oh, if you wanna say that i've change, please don't. Cause you will be accusing me cause i'm not. And i will not ever change. I love myself, with the way i am. If you wanna talk about change, ask yourself, is it me or you. I will change my attitude towards that person if she messes with my life. No reasons, no change in attitude. Get it?

No. The who's regretting everything, t's you. Not me. Bye

Awwww. That is sweet. I love her!